Today's Track : Wild Strawberries - Heroin
Did anyone see Sydney's speech to Vaughn on Alias' premiere? After waking up without any recollection of her past 2 years she finds out that he didn't bother looking for her and he got married to another woman. She gave one of the most powerful speeches I've seen on tv drama since the days of agent Mulder and agent Scully. Rivoting stuff! I've missed the first two seasons of Alias; watched the premiere of what is now the 3rd season; and now I'm hooked. Wow, I haven't been this excited about tv drama since Beverly 90210 (stop kidding youself, you know you loved that show too).
In other news, last night I caught myself talking to myself aloud. I told myself to stop.
I'm also 3/4 of the way through Coupland's Microserfs. Another brilliantly written book. Too bad I missed his book signing in Waterloo last week :(
Monday, September 29, 2003
Friday, September 26, 2003
Today's Track : Sarah McLaughlin - Fallen
The Family Chronicles
My grandmother loves to exercise. She's like 90 yrs old and she still goes for a walk every morning. One morning her and my sister went for a walk and had a discourse of sorts. A discourse which was shared with me.
An - Grandmother is driving me crazy.
Shaky - How so?
An - She wakes me up every morning and makes me take a walk with her.
Shaky - It's good for you, you need the exercise.
An - That's what she said too. She said, "You're so weak An. Look how skinny you are. You need to eat more; you need to exercise more -- like me."
Shaky - So what's so bad about that?
An - She told me that I'm weak because I don't walk with vigor like her. She says I'm really slow and have to swing my arms enthusiastically to go faster.
Shaky - hahaha.
An - Do you realize that she walks at the pace of molasses.
Shaky - Yeah, but apparently if you add a bit of enthusiasm and vim into molasses, it's super fast.
An - Shut up. The other day she also said that I don't eat enough. I told her that I wasn't always hungry. She then told me the key to making yourself hungry. She started rubbing her belly like this (rubs her belly in a circular motion), and told me to do that every morning to get my appetite going.
Shaky - Shhhh...don't say that too loud. That's an old secret that's been in our family for ages.
An - Shut up. I swear to god she's driving me crazy.
Shaky - You know how old people are. Just nod and agree with her to make her happy.
An - I do!
Shaky - The other day I walked by her room and saw her lying in bed doing biking motions with her arms and legs in the air. I almost made the mistake of stopping to ask her what she was doing. You know I would have had to join her. She should make one of those exercise videotapes and sell them on tv late at night!
An - Yeah, I'm sure people would be lining up for those like hotcakes.
Shaky - Everyone and their grandma would have one! We could call it "Sweatin' With the Oldies".
An - That was Richard Simmons' video.
Shaky - No, no...that was "Sweatin' to the Oldies".
An - You're an idiot.
Shaky - No you are!
An - You are!
Shaky - You!
The Family Chronicles
My grandmother loves to exercise. She's like 90 yrs old and she still goes for a walk every morning. One morning her and my sister went for a walk and had a discourse of sorts. A discourse which was shared with me.
An - Grandmother is driving me crazy.
Shaky - How so?
An - She wakes me up every morning and makes me take a walk with her.
Shaky - It's good for you, you need the exercise.
An - That's what she said too. She said, "You're so weak An. Look how skinny you are. You need to eat more; you need to exercise more -- like me."
Shaky - So what's so bad about that?
An - She told me that I'm weak because I don't walk with vigor like her. She says I'm really slow and have to swing my arms enthusiastically to go faster.
Shaky - hahaha.
An - Do you realize that she walks at the pace of molasses.
Shaky - Yeah, but apparently if you add a bit of enthusiasm and vim into molasses, it's super fast.
An - Shut up. The other day she also said that I don't eat enough. I told her that I wasn't always hungry. She then told me the key to making yourself hungry. She started rubbing her belly like this (rubs her belly in a circular motion), and told me to do that every morning to get my appetite going.
Shaky - Shhhh...don't say that too loud. That's an old secret that's been in our family for ages.
An - Shut up. I swear to god she's driving me crazy.
Shaky - You know how old people are. Just nod and agree with her to make her happy.
An - I do!
Shaky - The other day I walked by her room and saw her lying in bed doing biking motions with her arms and legs in the air. I almost made the mistake of stopping to ask her what she was doing. You know I would have had to join her. She should make one of those exercise videotapes and sell them on tv late at night!
An - Yeah, I'm sure people would be lining up for those like hotcakes.
Shaky - Everyone and their grandma would have one! We could call it "Sweatin' With the Oldies".
An - That was Richard Simmons' video.
Shaky - No, no...that was "Sweatin' to the Oldies".
An - You're an idiot.
Shaky - No you are!
An - You are!
Shaky - You!
Thursday, September 25, 2003
Today's Track : Liz Phair - Why Can't I
(In my attempts of not becoming linear, I have become perverse and random)
Today’s subconscious want ad...
Wanted – someone to replace me as junior database admin monkey for a week so I can go somewhere warm and lie in the sun.
…
So I’m commuting to work these days since my dad went back to work and I’m now car-less – which is totally TFD (tres f*ing drag). The one good thing is that I now have more time to read while waiting for the bus. As a new member of the commuting worker culture I had to endure some hazing this morning. Nothing wakes you up in the morning like a fresh whiff of BO from passing commuters. How do you even get BO so early in the morning? The day hasn’t even started and people are already sweating? I’d hate to see these people get really stressed out. They’d be like my dog -- leaving puddles everywhere they go.
…
After more than a year of blogging I have finally found the key to writing a good blog and I’m not telling any of you. Why? -- Because none of you have got the bollocks to pull it off.
…
Tim Horton’s ice cappuccinos give me diarrhea and McDonald’s Big Macs make my poops super solid (even more so than a triple thick milkshake). Hypothesis to be tested later : Big Mac + Ice Cappucino = normal/regular bowel movements.
...
"Here we are, we're at the beginning
We haven't fucked yet, but my head's spinning"
(In my attempts of not becoming linear, I have become perverse and random)
Today’s subconscious want ad...
Wanted – someone to replace me as junior database admin monkey for a week so I can go somewhere warm and lie in the sun.
…
So I’m commuting to work these days since my dad went back to work and I’m now car-less – which is totally TFD (tres f*ing drag). The one good thing is that I now have more time to read while waiting for the bus. As a new member of the commuting worker culture I had to endure some hazing this morning. Nothing wakes you up in the morning like a fresh whiff of BO from passing commuters. How do you even get BO so early in the morning? The day hasn’t even started and people are already sweating? I’d hate to see these people get really stressed out. They’d be like my dog -- leaving puddles everywhere they go.
…
After more than a year of blogging I have finally found the key to writing a good blog and I’m not telling any of you. Why? -- Because none of you have got the bollocks to pull it off.
…
Tim Horton’s ice cappuccinos give me diarrhea and McDonald’s Big Macs make my poops super solid (even more so than a triple thick milkshake). Hypothesis to be tested later : Big Mac + Ice Cappucino = normal/regular bowel movements.
...
"Here we are, we're at the beginning
We haven't fucked yet, but my head's spinning"
Tuesday, September 23, 2003
Random numbers...
...or maybe not
- I once went to Dave and Busters...at the end of the night...the total number of points I won on their games was 666.
- My Executive Snooker Club membership is number 666.
- The first number offered to me for my cell phone number started with 666.
- The last time I defragged my C: drive on my computer I had 666 MB free space remaining.
...or maybe not
Today's Track : Sainte Etienne - I Was Born On Christmas Day
As a part of our own humanity, we need to place faith in something. We cannot simply exist as empty faithless shells. I put faith in the fact that I’m not living an image of black and white; a linear life; a transparent existence. I was born into a good life. I was never victimized as a child. My parents love me. I’ve been dealt a good hand. The issue is whether or not my good hand is squandered on an uncreative life, or whether I apply it to continuing an extraordinary voyage. I have faith in the fact that I'm the fabricator of my own dream.
As a part of our own humanity, we need to place faith in something. We cannot simply exist as empty faithless shells. I put faith in the fact that I’m not living an image of black and white; a linear life; a transparent existence. I was born into a good life. I was never victimized as a child. My parents love me. I’ve been dealt a good hand. The issue is whether or not my good hand is squandered on an uncreative life, or whether I apply it to continuing an extraordinary voyage. I have faith in the fact that I'm the fabricator of my own dream.
Friday, September 19, 2003
Today's Track : New Order - Regret
If you choose not to make a choice you’ve essentially already made a choice. So if you can’t choose NOT to choose, then do you really have a choice of where your life is going? Yes you do. If you have a choice does that mean there’s no such thing as fate? No it doesn’t. It might not mean you’re destined to follow one path but it could mean that there are several paths that you might take in life. How many paths might we have? Estimate the number of life altering decisions you might have to make in a lifetime. Assume the simplistic scenario of having 3 choices of yes, no, and no choice. You’re looking at the number of life altering decisions to the factor of 3. That’s a lot of different outcomes for a single insignificant human being. Now think of making one bad choice in your life and how many possible outcomes you’ve already eliminated from your list of possible fates. In the case of 1 life altering decision with 3 choices -- one choice would eliminate 2/3 of your possible outcomes. Whether those are the good outcomes or the bad outcomes, no one will ever know.
(fate 1) (fate 2) (fate 3)(fate 4) (fate 5) (fate 6) (fate 7) (fate 8) (fate 9)
(1st choice)(2nd choice) (3rd choice)
(1st life-altering decision)
So what’s my point? My point is – as humans we have way too many choices to make and are not well-adapted enough to deal with the bad choices we make in life. That’s why we look back in anger; why we live vicariously through others; why we envy; and why we regret. If I could have one super power, it would be the ability to see all the possible outcomes of my life and the lives around me. You and I wouldn't have to be well-adapted. We'd be the master of our own fate.
If you choose not to make a choice you’ve essentially already made a choice. So if you can’t choose NOT to choose, then do you really have a choice of where your life is going? Yes you do. If you have a choice does that mean there’s no such thing as fate? No it doesn’t. It might not mean you’re destined to follow one path but it could mean that there are several paths that you might take in life. How many paths might we have? Estimate the number of life altering decisions you might have to make in a lifetime. Assume the simplistic scenario of having 3 choices of yes, no, and no choice. You’re looking at the number of life altering decisions to the factor of 3. That’s a lot of different outcomes for a single insignificant human being. Now think of making one bad choice in your life and how many possible outcomes you’ve already eliminated from your list of possible fates. In the case of 1 life altering decision with 3 choices -- one choice would eliminate 2/3 of your possible outcomes. Whether those are the good outcomes or the bad outcomes, no one will ever know.
(fate 1) (fate 2) (fate 3)
(1st choice)
(1st life-altering decision)
So what’s my point? My point is – as humans we have way too many choices to make and are not well-adapted enough to deal with the bad choices we make in life. That’s why we look back in anger; why we live vicariously through others; why we envy; and why we regret. If I could have one super power, it would be the ability to see all the possible outcomes of my life and the lives around me. You and I wouldn't have to be well-adapted. We'd be the master of our own fate.
Wednesday, September 17, 2003
Monday, September 15, 2003
Today's Track : Radiohead - Myxomatosis
Here are the 7 Jeopardy categories that define me…
1) Sports and more sports.
2) Reading and writing are fun.
3) The sound of music.
4) The passive aggressive war of 2002/2003.
5) A generation without faith.
6) I went through the comfort zone.
7) Two roads diverged in the woods and I got lost.
What are yours?
Here are the 7 Jeopardy categories that define me…
1) Sports and more sports.
2) Reading and writing are fun.
3) The sound of music.
4) The passive aggressive war of 2002/2003.
5) A generation without faith.
6) I went through the comfort zone.
7) Two roads diverged in the woods and I got lost.
What are yours?
Today's Track : The Strokes - 12:10
Random thoughts and random events in a life hardly worth blogging about...
Ironic -- awhile back I went out and bought a book called Utopia by Sir Thomas More. Somehow I've misplaced it and now I'm looking all over for Utopia.
So now I've started reading Microserf's by Douglas Coupland. I must hand it to him...he sure has a way of capturing the Zeitgeist.
Going to see the Lion King on Thursday night. I have finally found someone to watch musicals with.
The Strokes are in concert next month at the Hershey Centre and being a day late with almost everything in my life -- I was trying my luck to get tickets today. I've managed to score...and score large. Check out their next release (today's track). Rock on.
Random thoughts and random events in a life hardly worth blogging about...
Ironic -- awhile back I went out and bought a book called Utopia by Sir Thomas More. Somehow I've misplaced it and now I'm looking all over for Utopia.
So now I've started reading Microserf's by Douglas Coupland. I must hand it to him...he sure has a way of capturing the Zeitgeist.
Going to see the Lion King on Thursday night. I have finally found someone to watch musicals with.
The Strokes are in concert next month at the Hershey Centre and being a day late with almost everything in my life -- I was trying my luck to get tickets today. I've managed to score...and score large. Check out their next release (today's track). Rock on.
Friday, September 12, 2003
Wednesday, September 10, 2003
Today's Track : Simply Red - Sunrise
So the international film festival is in town and everyone is trying to get a glimpse of all the stars from hollywood. I've managed to see two films with Wanda. Last Saturday I saw an artsy Japanese film called "Bright Future" and on Monday night I saw a vampire/werewolf action film called "Underworld". Both excellent movies for their perspective genres. To top it all off I even got a glimpse of Kate Beckinsale. The title eludes me but We're going to see a french movie this Saturday as the festival winds down.
Tangent alert!!
The hardest thing about breaking up isn't learning to live without someone who's been such a big part of your life for so long. It isn't trying to figure out what sort of relationship you can salvage with that person. It isn't about re-integrating yourself back into the single society and it isn't about rebuilding your self-esteem. It's about getting your goddamn stuff back. Damn it! I want my book back!!
My ex-gf still hasn't returned one of my favourite books -- "Girlfriend in a Coma" by Douglas coupland. It would be quite ironic if that same book fell off her bookshelf, hit her in the head, and put her into a coma. Too bad that will never happen since that book is a paperback. That's why you should always buy hardcover.
I shouldn't say that though. It would bring upon bad karma for me. I take it back.
Here's a great business idea -- someone start a repo service for relationships.
So the international film festival is in town and everyone is trying to get a glimpse of all the stars from hollywood. I've managed to see two films with Wanda. Last Saturday I saw an artsy Japanese film called "Bright Future" and on Monday night I saw a vampire/werewolf action film called "Underworld". Both excellent movies for their perspective genres. To top it all off I even got a glimpse of Kate Beckinsale. The title eludes me but We're going to see a french movie this Saturday as the festival winds down.
Tangent alert!!
The hardest thing about breaking up isn't learning to live without someone who's been such a big part of your life for so long. It isn't trying to figure out what sort of relationship you can salvage with that person. It isn't about re-integrating yourself back into the single society and it isn't about rebuilding your self-esteem. It's about getting your goddamn stuff back. Damn it! I want my book back!!
My ex-gf still hasn't returned one of my favourite books -- "Girlfriend in a Coma" by Douglas coupland. It would be quite ironic if that same book fell off her bookshelf, hit her in the head, and put her into a coma. Too bad that will never happen since that book is a paperback. That's why you should always buy hardcover.
I shouldn't say that though. It would bring upon bad karma for me. I take it back.
Here's a great business idea -- someone start a repo service for relationships.
Monday, September 08, 2003
Today's Track : Don Mclean - Starry Starry Night
I don't know about you but I'm reaching into my pocket right now and seeing if I've got some spare change I could give to the US government to help fund their little oil project in Iraq. There's something to be said about a country that knows what it wants and sends billions and billions of dollars worth of greed and power to get it. I mean heck, forget the "support a starving child by donating $1 a day" campaign -- I'm starting up the "support a self-righteous, power hungry nation under the cover of democracy" campaign.
I don't know about you but I'm reaching into my pocket right now and seeing if I've got some spare change I could give to the US government to help fund their little oil project in Iraq. There's something to be said about a country that knows what it wants and sends billions and billions of dollars worth of greed and power to get it. I mean heck, forget the "support a starving child by donating $1 a day" campaign -- I'm starting up the "support a self-righteous, power hungry nation under the cover of democracy" campaign.
Tuesday, September 02, 2003
Time is never time at all
You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth
And our lives are forever changed
We will never be the same
The more you change , the less you feel
Believe , believe in me, believe , believe
That life can change , that you're not stuck in vain
The nights are becoming increasingly cool these days. A sign that the summer is slowly winding down. I'm looking back at how much I've accomplished in the last 3-4 months -- career-wise I'm on the right track; relationship-wise I've given everyone who's important in my life the time that they've warranted; and as a person I feel complete again. My self-esteem is not terribly low and it's not ridiculously high. I've done more thinking and maturing over the past several months than I've done in the past 6 years. Over the weekend, as Wanda and I walked around Streetsville in and out of used book and cd shops, I didn't feel as though I was fighting with time to hold onto something close to me. Life wasn't moving too quickly, it wasn't moving too slowly -- it was pacing itself with me. I can't help but think that this has something to do with that red planet that's peculiarly close to Earth this month. I don't read horoscopes and I don't particularly believe in the zodiac signs but Mars does corresponds with my zodiac sign (Aries). Even if this has nothing to do with Mars, I still feel closer than I've ever been to normalcy. Maybe this is where my story begins.
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